i shouldve known better than to work for the man.

recently my relatively new employer lets call it XXXX agency merged with lets call it EDV. this means one of four things.

1. life continues as is, nothing changes, i stay employed. yay because i dont have to mission without money or looking for a job. however, something in me saddens at this thought because i like the adventurous unknown and seeing what this does for the grand scheme of my life.

2. our office closes bc its relatively insignificant and business can be conducted out of one of the other main offices in LA or NY. (this means they don't pay for assistants to move bc theyre a dime a dozen.. and im laid off) this scenario should freak me out but it doesnt. but somewhere in the back of my head i think this is akin to when you have a relationship with someone you take for granted and think youd love to break up with given the right moment.. but when they do it to you, you realize how much you loved them (or it) all along. i DONT think this will happen to me bc i dont love work. i dont know if its working in general or just the work i do now. i just know im not fond of it. but i also like having a steady income at a fairly decent job. moving on.

3. our office expands and new agents are brought in. this slightly excites me because theres a chance ill be promoted to an assistant (im in the proverbial mailroom.. its not so bad, its my own, and im usually left to my own devices.. however, its time for a more respectable title) and ofcourse, meeting new people .. rather, characters.. that have worked for EDV which means theyve literally worked for Ari Gold. i really wouldnt mind that sort of insight.. and if for nothing else, simply for sheer entertainment.

4. our office closes but nevertheless, the big agents break off and do their own thing and they need people (read: peons) to help them start up for next to nothing, and this is where i come in because itll be that or.. some other brand new entry level job and starting all over again with new people.. and hating that new job in exactly 3-4 months, like always. or worse, a job in the service industry.. shudder. (the pro there is.. no 9-5 desk but thats absolute last resort)


i should have an answer in the next 2-3 weeks.. and ill be surprised if its options 3 or 4. am i gunning for 1 or 2? not sure. ambivalent you could say. shrug, i say.